Down The Rabbit Hole

Down The Rabbit Hole

The Curious Adventures And Cautionary Tales Of A Former Playboy Bunny

Book - 2015
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The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key; from one of the few people who truly knows: Hefs former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's #1 girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn't a dream at all and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams and finding the life we deserve.

Publisher: New York, NY :, Dey St., an imprint of WilliamMorrowPublishers,, [2015]
Edition: First edition
ISBN: 9780062372109
Branch Call Number: B MADISON
Characteristics: xii, 334 pages :,color illustrations ;,24 cm


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In this gossipy and fun read, Holly spills the beans on her life before, during, and after the Playboy Mansion.

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Former Playboy Bunny and ex-Hefner squeeze, Holly Madison (aka. Holly Cullen) kills me - She gives the title to her "tell-all" tales as "Down The Rabbit Hole" and then she has the audacity to actually start off each chapter with a quote lifted directly from author, Lewis Carroll's book "Alice's Adventures In Wonderland". (Oh!? Really!??)

I guess that Holly fancies herself as being something of a modern-day "Alice" - Except, of course - Holly didn't go down the rabbit hole - No - Instead - She went down on Hefner's viagra-stiff phallus. (Yep. One pill makes you larger and one pill makes you small)

At the sweet, fresh, and virginal age of 18 - Holly (switching from brunette to blond) got it into her calculating, little head to do some serious gold-digging.

And, where did Holly go to do her "prospecting"? - Why the Playboy Mansion, of course.

But, before long all of the fun and games in this playboyland paradise hit a mighty sour note. Indeed. And, sure enough, Holly was being shown the exit door in no uncertain terms.

And, I ask you - Do these sex-capades of Holly's sound like the kinds of activities that would run in parallel with Alice's trip down the rabbit hole? I think not. But, I guess to Holly it all does (just follow the yellow brick road).

Aug 29, 2016

Also check out this book for some Playboy Mansion dirt. Bunny Tales: Behind Closed Doors at the Playboy Mansion by Izabella St. James. Life behind the gates of the Playboy Mansion was anything but fun. Sure there were parties, presents, puppies, and plastic surgery; but there was also a curfew, a strict regimen of who sits where on movie night, limited contact with the outside world, and a sex life that was anything but wild and crazy. From catfights to sneaking in boyfriends, from high-profile guests in the Grotto to the bizarre rituals of the octogenarian at the center of the sexual revolution.

Cynthia_N Mar 10, 2016

This book could have been so much more interesting but instead it was a little bit whiny.

Jan 18, 2016

Not a bad read but I was hoping for more "dirt" behind the mansion walls. Small town girl makes good is the way I saw it, a little plodding near the end. I have certainly read better autobiographies.

Jan 01, 2016

Good read - had no idea that Hugh Hefner was so "cool" towards most of his Playgirls what an ego-riddled old man.

Oct 04, 2015

I give it 3.5 stars because it was everything a celebrity memoir should be: young person from small town hits it big in Hollywood, loses their sense of identity, then rises from the ashes like a phoenix to becomes successful on their own terms.

Judgement aside, I have heard Hef's version and read Holly's version and expect the truth to be somewhere in the middle. I think she, like so many women before her, was addicted to the lifestyle and did not understand she had hit rock bottom until she had lost every single freedom she had. I also doubt her journey to success was quite as easy as she painted it. The Playboy mansion was probably not quite as bad as she said, and her rediscovery was not as perfect as she wished, but fudging in a memoir is a long and honored tradition.

I am happy for her that she is happy now with a baby and a husband, and her club in Las Vegas.

JMFlaherty Aug 18, 2015

I thought it was a fascinating read. I admire Holly for getting herself out from under and earning her own living and making something of herself. She has a nice family now, husband and child, so the book states and shows (in photos).
[My, my......we do live in a very judgmental country now, don't we?]

Aug 14, 2015

It was a decent read but I couldn't help but feel she had alternative motives to publishing this book. All these years have passed did you really need to insult this man now???

Aug 12, 2015

As a fan of the 'Girls Next Door' tv series, I was rather eager to read this book. While the book reveals some details concerning secrets on how the mansion functions, after a while, it seemed more like a whiny journal.

Aug 07, 2015

pretty pointless book overall unless your goal is to learn about the "drama" inherent in being one of the twenty-something girlfriends of ancient Hefner...and no, it's not sexy reading. It's pretty juvenile and dull , as if written by a 15 year old.


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Aug 12, 2015

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